Today we had the funeral and celebration for Bella-Rose.
I can honestly say that it was the hardest thing I have ever done*.
From the moment that the father carried in the small coffin, to the last verse of the last song, the tears were either on the verge or were flowing freely. I write that without apology. I have never drummed whilst feeling like that before and I never want to again.
The point of the service was to celebrate the short life and to stand with the parents. I only hope that they will look back at the service and that it will have been fitting. Even thinking about the pain on their faces is making me feel the hurt again.
There is verly little else I can write without feeling like I'm betraying Bella and her parents.
*There is one other event in my life that would rank above today, but I had Hol next to me then. She made all the difference.
Hi
ReplyDeleteI know not of the circumstances or reasons why, but assume we are talking about the loss of a very young child or baby...
Either way, it reminded me of some deeply moving lyrics, that may or may not be appropriate....
Twila Paris (God is in Control)
A visitor from Heaven
If only for a while
A gift of love to be returned
We think of you and smile
A visitor from Heaven
Accompanied by grace
Reminding of a better love
And of a better place
With aching hearts and empty arms
We send you with a name
It hurts so much to let you go
But we’re so glad you came
We’re so glad you came
A visitor from Heaven
If only for a day
We thank Him for the time He gave
And now it’s time to say
We trust you to the Father’s love
And to His tender care
Held in the everlasting arms
And we’re so glad you’re there
We’re so glad you’re there
With breaking hearts and open hands
We send you with a name
It hurts so much to let you go
But we’re so glad you came
We’re so glad you came
Hey Monty
ReplyDeleteShe was still-born to a couple in the church.
That song is wonderful. Thanks for posting it.
Phil.