This morning, few things felt as appealing as going back to bed, pulling the duvet over my head and staying there until it became Monday.
I was not looking forward to today nor expecting it to be in any way celebratory.
But.
We all got up, we all got ready and we all went to church. We saw friends, we listened to Phil Stoddart talk about his experience since the night two of his daughters died in an accident (which was not as hard going as it could have been or as hard going as being there in the first place.)
We then had a family lunch and spent time together. It the light of my last post this was none too uplifting either.
Two years ago I nearly lost my wife, last year we baptised family, this year we did lose family.
For me, Fathers Day holds little to celebrate (baptisms aside) and for now, I'm looking forward to Monday (if you can believe it.)
I hope, and pray, that one day Fathers Day will be redeemed for me. One day it will; just not this day.
Hey,
ReplyDeletedon't really know what to say, but kinda wanna express love to you guys somehow.
One thing I will say though, is I'm interested by the absence of 'you' being a father in your post. You have two beautiful daughters (Eva who wasn't yet born at this point last year!) and I praise God that they have an awesome father. I hope and pray that they'll grow up to see God through you and experience the same loving, patient and empowering, Godly man that I've experienced.
I agree with Sparkles. The loss of John is unmeasurable by our standards and unbearable by yours, but you have been blessed with your children as your parents are with you and blessed by Our Heavenly Father Himself.
ReplyDeleteWe are remembering you all in our prayers dear brother and family.
I think that's what I mean.
ReplyDeleteThe problem is that there is a lack of me as a Father in the whole Fathers day thing.
When that returns, then the day will be redeemed.
I'd love to invite you to upload any original songs that are well produced to worshipsong.com. It's a place for your songs to be heard and for you to be able to sell downloadable mp3's rhythm charts, etc.
ReplyDeleteBlessings...
Holland Davis